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eyes of the child part one
to our children's children
great grandpa
it i could talk with you
i would want to know
is it ok to be spiritual and not religious
do you meet G-d when you die?
does it all depend on if you were close to G-d during your life?
did you enjoy being a Rabbi?
why did you die young?
did you like living in Minneapolis?
i hear that you were very loved by people of all faiths there
and that you have a school, a Talmud Torah named for you
i hope to go there one day and see the plaque
so i know that i love you
even though my mom did not get to meet you
you feel like your history, energy and love
are in my genes.
and maybe that is so
my ancestor
my hero
my great grandpa
your picture sits on our piano
in the dining room
and you are thought of very often
and loved
from afar
or maybe
you are right next to me
when i think of you
we don't know how souls and spirit work
love is the glue of life
i think
i feel that i might be right

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Cardinals
showing up
at special moments
to remind
that you are around me
i miss you so much
i can't get used to not seeing you
and being with you
i am crying inside
it is rare that the tears show up on the outside
but they are there
and i miss you so much
i miss you when i am afraid and am low in the confidence department
i miss you when my bills scare me
i miss you when it is your birthday and mine
and the rest of the family
i miss you so much
and i am finding it so hard
to accept that you, my parents are no longer here
with and for me on the Earth
i am trying so hard
but that sad place inside of me hurts so bad
it hurts so badly
what can i do?

no title today

so listening to the cd on becoming stronger within yourself
has been energizing
self care
it must be a priority
it has to be done
in order to have anything to give to others
and so vitamins are taken
and exercise is embraced more each day
and feelings are treated like a newborn baby
attended to
meeting any needs that come up
asking for help when necessary
being strong
being gentle
with love
with acceptance
and joy
and sometimes overtiredness
which is tough
and digging deeper for self love with prayers perhaps
love in your being
your soul
soothing music in your mind
inner peace coming in and out of focus.
it is working out now. it will be fine.
take a few deep breaths and be mindful of everything that is working out beautifully.